Comparing methods of birth?

Me and my bf are ttc and im hoping im really nervous cause today is the day my period is supposed to start and it hasnt i took a test a week ago and it came out negative but i think i took it too early anyway ive had multiple miscarriges so i would be considered a high pregnancy most likely if i am and im indecisive as to methods of birth im stuck between water birth and a cesarean i want a water birth so i can bond with my child immediently after and i do my kegal exercises in the tub cause the water makes it easier and i think birth would be the same could be wrong idk and im considering the cesarean cause im scared of the labor pain and the tearing but ive heard the healing afterwards is just as bad as labor pains and i wont heal as fast as if i gave birth i also want to bond with my child afterwards and i dont think i can with a cesarean so anywho i guess what im asking is please just leave me with your advice opinion and story of your birth so i can better decide how i plan to do mine when i get the chance thank you